After not getting much rest last night, I was already dragging when I went to see my psychiatrist. The appointment went pretty much as I thought it would. After sharing my fears and anxieties about returning to work, she also agreed with my therapist that the best course of action may be to seek different employment than what I currently have. As of this point, she has extended my leave through February 9th. She has also asked me to increase my current dosage of antidepressant.
I’m still very torn about my decision. I’ve talked to so many people who tell me that I need to do what is best for my mental and physical health, and deep down inside I know what that decision would be, but I still wish that someone could just tell me what to do.
I feel that some weight has been lifted off my chest knowing that I do not need to return to work immediately and that I have some additional time to focus on getting my energy levels back to a sustainable level. A few weeks ago, I had some blood work done to see if there were any underlying issues that may have been causing my mental illness. My doctors found that I had dangerously low levels of both vitamin D and B levels in my system. I was prescribed a monthly dose of prescription strength vitamin D and also started a week of B-12 injections (something fun for someone who hates needles). I’m now down to weekly injections for the next several weeks.
Over the next few days, I plan on really focusing on me. What will be best for me, what could possibly harm me, and also ways to help gain back the energy and happiness I once had. I’ve been given the amazing opportunity over the last several days to talk to many of you who take the time to read my blog, and I can’t thank you enough. The kind words, comments, and emails have made me smile, and at times, made me cry. I ask that you please continue to follow me on my journey, and to share your thoughts and personal experiences as I am able to draw from all of them to make me a stronger person.
With love.
I’m still very torn about my decision. I’ve talked to so many people who tell me that I need to do what is best for my mental and physical health, and deep down inside I know what that decision would be, but I still wish that someone could just tell me what to do.
I feel that some weight has been lifted off my chest knowing that I do not need to return to work immediately and that I have some additional time to focus on getting my energy levels back to a sustainable level. A few weeks ago, I had some blood work done to see if there were any underlying issues that may have been causing my mental illness. My doctors found that I had dangerously low levels of both vitamin D and B levels in my system. I was prescribed a monthly dose of prescription strength vitamin D and also started a week of B-12 injections (something fun for someone who hates needles). I’m now down to weekly injections for the next several weeks.
Over the next few days, I plan on really focusing on me. What will be best for me, what could possibly harm me, and also ways to help gain back the energy and happiness I once had. I’ve been given the amazing opportunity over the last several days to talk to many of you who take the time to read my blog, and I can’t thank you enough. The kind words, comments, and emails have made me smile, and at times, made me cry. I ask that you please continue to follow me on my journey, and to share your thoughts and personal experiences as I am able to draw from all of them to make me a stronger person.
With love.