Today was a good, and long, day. Last night was the first night I have fallen asleep before midnight in a very long time. It felt good, and I almost felt rested when I woke up. However, even after a long and full day and a double dose of sleeping medication (don’t worry, the doctor said I could,) I still can’t seem to fall asleep. My psychiatrist has now also prescribed a mood stabilizer along with my depression medication in hopes that it will assist in making me feel more stable. After my psychiatrist appointment, I went a few doors down to the psychologist. Today, there was a lot of crying, but it felt good to cry. I felt like it was a healing cry.
In the reading that I’ve been doing recently, I’ve really found a great life mantra. In Louise Hays’ book that I wrote about yesterday, she talks about how others have treated us in the past and how it can cause us to think badly on ourselves. Instead of focusing on how the person hurt you in the past, simply repeat to yourself “The person did the best that they could at that time in their life with the knowledge they had.” The hope is that by using that mantra, one can bring calmness to their wellbeing by focusing on how we were treated with a more positive spin, therefore bringing more positive influences into our lives.
While I will continue to blog about my daily progress as well, I am going to make a conscious effort to focus on the positives that happen to me each day and also to reflect on the gratitude I have. Today, I was able to get through two appointments, lunch, and almost two hours of walking around a semi-crowded mall. For me, that is a huge success. Also, today, I am most grateful for my amazingly wonderful mother. She has pushed me, coached me, cried with me, and made me laugh over the past few months. She has helped me to see situations objectively while supporting me in the decisions I have made.
While I’m finally getting somewhat tired, I keep repeating to myself “I am tired,” in hopes of focusing even more on bringing what I want into my life. Tomorrow is another day to do something great!
In the reading that I’ve been doing recently, I’ve really found a great life mantra. In Louise Hays’ book that I wrote about yesterday, she talks about how others have treated us in the past and how it can cause us to think badly on ourselves. Instead of focusing on how the person hurt you in the past, simply repeat to yourself “The person did the best that they could at that time in their life with the knowledge they had.” The hope is that by using that mantra, one can bring calmness to their wellbeing by focusing on how we were treated with a more positive spin, therefore bringing more positive influences into our lives.
While I will continue to blog about my daily progress as well, I am going to make a conscious effort to focus on the positives that happen to me each day and also to reflect on the gratitude I have. Today, I was able to get through two appointments, lunch, and almost two hours of walking around a semi-crowded mall. For me, that is a huge success. Also, today, I am most grateful for my amazingly wonderful mother. She has pushed me, coached me, cried with me, and made me laugh over the past few months. She has helped me to see situations objectively while supporting me in the decisions I have made.
While I’m finally getting somewhat tired, I keep repeating to myself “I am tired,” in hopes of focusing even more on bringing what I want into my life. Tomorrow is another day to do something great!