I haven’t written in several days and I’m not really sure why. Perhaps because I’ve been feeling pretty good I haven’t felt the need to get anything out of my mind and onto virtual paper. Today however, has been a rough day and I’ve noticed that I get the most comfort out of sharing what I’m feeling with others.
I officially quit my job, and as soon as I did a sense of relief washed over me. Now, I’m back to being stressed and it is showing on my body. My face has broken out, my back has been hurting again, and I’m feeling myself getting more and more tired throughout the day.
I’m pretty sure that the reason I am feeling kinda crappy over the last two days is because while now I am not worrying about going back to work, I am worrying about finding a job, bills, and how I’m going to pay for things in the upcoming moths. I made the decision to trade in my car earlier this week because I knew it would save me money. I was really happy with my decision even though I was driving my dream car, and felt proud of myself for making a “grown up” decision.
I’ve applied to several positions for various companies, but have yet to hear back from any of them. The waiting game is perhaps the hardest part and it is driving me crazy. I have such a good support system around me, but I feel myself slipping a little. I feel the stress and sadness creeping back up and I’m trying my hardest to push it back down. I need to allow myself to have bad days, but I am so afraid of getting stuck back in a rut that I’m trying to keep myself as busy as possible to not think about everything that is going on in my personal life. One of these days, I’ll figure something out.
I officially quit my job, and as soon as I did a sense of relief washed over me. Now, I’m back to being stressed and it is showing on my body. My face has broken out, my back has been hurting again, and I’m feeling myself getting more and more tired throughout the day.
I’m pretty sure that the reason I am feeling kinda crappy over the last two days is because while now I am not worrying about going back to work, I am worrying about finding a job, bills, and how I’m going to pay for things in the upcoming moths. I made the decision to trade in my car earlier this week because I knew it would save me money. I was really happy with my decision even though I was driving my dream car, and felt proud of myself for making a “grown up” decision.
I’ve applied to several positions for various companies, but have yet to hear back from any of them. The waiting game is perhaps the hardest part and it is driving me crazy. I have such a good support system around me, but I feel myself slipping a little. I feel the stress and sadness creeping back up and I’m trying my hardest to push it back down. I need to allow myself to have bad days, but I am so afraid of getting stuck back in a rut that I’m trying to keep myself as busy as possible to not think about everything that is going on in my personal life. One of these days, I’ll figure something out.